Oh, well

okay let's talk about marriage.
why?
because i just watched 'The Proposal' and suddenly makes me wanna talk about marriage. haha.
this past two years, i've been moaning about me wanting a boyfriend. and my friends keep telling me : "He'll come to you. don't worry." or "God save the best for you." or " who'd know when he finally arrives, it'll last forever."
well, i usually just said : "yea yea yea that's what you think. i don't want a future husband. all i want is a boyfriend who can comfort me right now." back then, i'm not looking for mr. right-for-the-future. i want mr. right now-who'll-probably-be-my-future. get the point? haha..
i keep moaning until this past month when suddenly i don't feel like having a boyfriend anymore. in other words, i'm comfortable with where i am right now. with friends and family around me. i wouldn't ask for more. -besides, there're nobody who i can flirt into so yeah, i'm practically happy being single. haha-

but then i saw my junior in junior high school who suddenly decided to get married in such short notice. she's like 20. and she decided to get married. i'm trying not to be synical about her suddenly being married in her early 20. i don't want to make any speculation. it's not my right. what i'm trying to say here is, when i saw her picture wearing the dress with her soon-to-be husband. each of them put a ring to each other hand. it's a beauty. it's love. and i'm jealous.

not just that. when i saw this picture of a guy ,who i adore recently, with his fiancee goofin' around , pictures of them when he bend on his knee to propose her and the look on her face when she found out that he is proposing. it's too sweet. and once again, i'm jealous.

and today, 'The Proposal' made it even worse. the part when he suddenly realize that he loves her and actually proposing. -sorry for the spoiler- made me even jealous.

so i came down with one conclusion. from now on, i'm looking for a husband-to-be. not just a typical-ordinary boyfriend. haha. i realize that i'm almost 21. next semester is gonna be my last year in college -i hope so wish me luck will ya?- my i-think-she's just-a-teenage-girl-who-has-just-grown-up cousin is going to high school next year! so yeah, i'm basically old. and i need to find a steady boyfriend who really want to make it happen to the next level. not just a mr.right now.

i'm a grown up now. so i'm gonna act like one. hey mr.right-which-i-might-say-husband-to-be i know you're out there and will you come here soon, i'll be waiting! hahaha..

anyway, enough rambling about marriage and stuff. didn't i tell you that i recently went ga-ga over this band named Melee after i saw them performed live at JRL this past few weeks?
okay. if i didn't i'll tell it now. I'M GOING GA-GA OVER THIS BAND. hahaha.. not just because they have made an amazingly great songs and lyrics , they also are a very nice person. they replied most of their fans tweet. and followed them back on twitter. i just love them.


Melee ( Le-Ri : Ryan,Ricky,Chris,Mike) source




and here's one of their song which i think the lyrics fit perfectly with this post (except, change all the 'she' with 'he' .;p).

Melee - She's Gonna Find me here

Now I don't have to climb the highest mountain
And I don't have to sail the seven seas.
Now I don't have to push myself through desert sands
'Cause she's gonna find me here.

And I don't have to put on all my best clothes
And I don't have to put on a show.
Now I don't have to act like a total stranger
'Cause she's gonna find me here.

When she finally arrives
It will be right on time.
And I'll know that it's real
'Cause the light in her eyes
Will look through and show what a fool I had been
To search far and wide with my heart in my hands.

And I don't have to worry about her
'Cause I know she's fine, now, on her own.
Now can put my mind on things in my own life
'Cause shes gonna find me here.
You know that she's gonna find me here.

And when she finally arrives
It will be right on time.
And I'll know that it's real
'Cause the light in her eyes
Will look through and show what a fool I had been
To search far and wide with my heart in my hands.

Now I don't have to cut up my heart
Into pieces so small
And give them to those who don't care.
Now I don't have to search for one girl
In the depths of my soul
'Cause she's gonna find me
'Cause she's gonna find me
You know she's gonna find me here.
I don't have to search far and wide
'Cause she's gonna find me here

well that conclude it all.
nighty night people!
xoxo- derisa

well, it's 1 A.M. in the morning and i haven't sleep.
not that i'm not tired or sleepy. i AM tired and sleepy but i don't fell like going to bed yet. weird, i know. but hey since it's already 18th of August, yesterday was Indonesia's 64 years of independence. DIRGAHAYU INDONESIAKU! :)
what makes me proud is a lot of international artist had congratulate our country. whether it's from Twitter or Facebook. like this man from a band called Good Charlotte tweeted last night:

RT @JoelMadden: "HAPPY B DAY INDONESIA." 10:56 AM Aug 16th from web --the time is on USA's time

later this night, he tweeted again :

RT @JoelMadden: "Merdeka. Good Night." about 11 hours ago from web


not only him. lead vocal of the band called Fall Out Boy also did the same thing :

"RT @petewentz: RT @JoelMadden: HAPPY B DAY INDONESIA." 11:03 AM Aug 16th from UberTwitter


wait,there's more (Melee):

"Happy Birthday Indonesia! Thanks for being so nice to us! LOVE @MeleeRocks"
about 17 hours ago from web

and more (Chris Cron, Melee's lead vocal / keyboard):

16 Agustus , tanpa hari ini ga akan ada 17 Agustus.
ga akan ada pembacaan teks proklamasi.
naskah proklamasi ditulis hari ini, 64 tahun yang lalu.
kemerdekaan iniadalah perjuangan. perjuangan mereka yang rela mati demi Republik. demi Indonesia merdeka.
biar aja orang bilang kita merdeka karena Jepang nyerah. tetep aja sebelumnya kita mati-matian ngelawan mereka. 3 1/2 abad kita dijajah Belanda. 350 Tahun tanpa kebebasan di negeri sendiri.
3 tahun kita dijajah Jepang. jadi babu di negara sendiri. kita pantas merdeka. kita punya hak buat merdeka. dan itulah yang dilakukan Pahlawan2 kita di masa lalu.

17 Agustus 1945. Proklamasi dibacakan. Kata MERDEKA dikumandangkan.
tapi kita masih belum bebas di negara sendiri.

Kemarin gw nonton Merah Putih. walaupun itu bukan kisah nyata, tapi gw jadi tau gimana rasanya berada pada jaman perang. film itu setting nya taun 1947, dimana masih ada Belanda walaupun kata MERDEKA sudah dikumandangkan. miris banget gw nontonnya. gw ngebayangin apa jadinya kita kalo ga ada pahlawan yang berjuang ngebela negara ini?
masih bisakah gw tidur tenang? jalan-jalan semau mau nya? kuliah? ngerasain kebebasan seperti apa yang gw rasain sekarang? mungkin nggak.
jadi mungkin ini saatnya kita buat merenung sejenak. mengenang kembali jasa pahlawan yang tanpa pamrih ngebela hak negara ini buat merdeka. buat ngerasain kebebasan di negara kita sendiri. Terima Kasih Pahlawan ku.

DIRGAHAYU INDONESIAKU! :)




P.S. : Merah Putih is GREAT! ini yang ngebuat gw pengen nge post tentang kemerdekaan. beberapa line favorit gw di film Merah Putih.

"Jawa lawan Sulawesi. orang kota lawan petani. siapa yang menang? Belanda!" -Surono

Dayan (Hindu) : "Terima Kasih makanannya."
Amir (Muslim) : "sama-sama. asal kamu janji setiap sebelum perang kamu berdoa minta bantuan pada dewa-dewa mu."
Dayan : "saya kira kamu hanya percaya satu Tuhan?"
Amir : " saya percaya, setiap orang punya jalan nya masing masing dalam menemukan Tuhan mereka."